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The Big Glad

by Park National

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    Tracklist:

    SIDE A
    1. Smooth Brain Summer
    2. Beef Shawarma
    3. How to Stop Caring
    4. Birds

    SIDE B
    5. Faking My Own Death
    6. The Key
    7. Live Slow, Skate Fast
    8. Reality Check

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1.
Why be sad when you can be glad?
2.
You walked from the bottom of the staircase And I could see the pain on your face As you left me and I watched you drive away I think I said too much and made you cry And I read that text that said "I hate you" at least a thousand times But if all I have to remind me of you Is the hair still stuck to my shoulder that would be alright So just wait for me to leave And I promise you you'll see, you'll see That we're not done yet We're not done yet I'm not finished yet I think my head's too strong I got this shit all wrong Sometimes it's best to play along So just wait for me to leave And I promise you you'll see, you'll see That we're not done yet We're not done yet I'm not finished yet This isn't over Don't think it over This isn't over Don't think it over You walked from the bottom of the staircase And I could see the pain on your face But I don't care if it hurts you anyway
3.
I wish that I could change the way I talk around you And I hate the sound of my own voice Our conversations lead us nowhere But losing you is my worst nightmare I’ll just sit still and worry about shit that doesn’t matter You like when I call you and tell you it’s fine, I’m fine It’s alright I don’t care Sometimes I feel like I’m just not there I’m not there I’ll just sit still and worry about shit that doesn’t matter You like when I call you and tell you it’s fine, I’m fine You like when I call you and tell you it’s fine, it’s fine I’m fine, I’m fine
4.
Birds 02:40
Finally wrote down A list of things to come Fear of being let down To satisfy someone Sometimes I scare myself Sitting here today Hoping tomorrow never comes Finally wrote out The things I could become But I put myself down To say I'm not enough Sometimes I scare myself Into being someone else Sitting here today Hoping tomorrow never comes Eventually, I swear I'll suck it up, I'll suck it up
5.
I want to fake my own death just to see If anyone would miss me I want to make some new friends and leave my house on weekends Find someone who cares about themselves as much as they care about me I want to take a break from reality Cause it's 4 A.M. and I can't sleep I want to learn how to stop caring so I don't disappoint my parents I want to find a way to forget myself for a little bit Just for a little bit of the time So I can finally feel something inside Inside my head's a mess but everything seems fine It's fine I'll only be stuck in here for a while For a while
6.
The Key 03:08
If you wanted trust then you should have just said But you cleaned the messes in my head And now it's bottled up instead Bottled up instead If you wanted trust then you should have just said But now I'm just stuck here in my bed Dwelling on the signs that I misread I made a plan to help me sleep You made a plan to keep me off my feet Taught me how to live at a fast pace Never seen myself face to face Always let you trap me in one place But I save the key I save it just in case Oh, just in case If you wanted trust then you should have just said But you fucked it up somehow again And I let it fly over my head Taught me how to live at a fast pace Never seen myself face to face Always let you trap me in one place But I save the key I save it just in case Oh, just in case
7.
It's been three long months since I've seen a face But now I wish I could just lay here Just lay here It's been three long months since I've left this place But now I wish I could just stay here Oh, just stay here My fucking head hurts From spinning in the wrong direction again I know that sunlight would be good for me But I don't want to leave for anything and You should know that something's always stopping me From being that person I want to be My fucking head hurts From spinning in the wrong direction again I know that sunlight would be good for me But I don't want to leave for anything and You should know that something's always stopping me From being that person I want to be (I'm thinking that the universe is on my side again) My fucking head hurts From spinning in the wrong direction again
8.
Summer is just around the corner And you know I'll be leaving soon I'll be leaving soon But I'm too damn high to understand The words you say to me A new place and new faces is what I need to make it To where I want to go Just so you know Summer goes by without you knowing And I don't want to think too soon But I'm too damn high to understand The words you say to me A new place and new faces is what I need to make it To where I want to go Just so you know Just so you know I made a song just for you Cause I hope that you'll feel it too This thing that never goes away I am my own worst enemy I made a song just for you Cause I hope that you'll feel it too This thing that never goes away I am my worst enemy I made a song just for you Cause I hope that you'll feel it too When I'm all out of things to say I am my own worst enemy

about

The Big Glad is about discovering my own flaws, and the constant battle to overcome my own mental limitations. This album represents our never-ending attempt to have control over how we think and feel, and our desire to make light out of a negative situation. It is all about honesty and the confrontations we have with ourselves on a daily basis. The goal of this release for me was to capture the happiness that we are all relentlessly working towards, and characterize it in the only way I truly know how. These songs were all pieced together alone in my bedroom over several months, and I hope you can discover your own meaning in these words I sing and these riffs I play. I hope you enjoy this album, and I hope that you can make fun and happy memories with these songs. Just like I have. :)


Big thanks to: Addy, Nolan, Austin, Luke, Truman, Griffin, Nate, Aidan, Grace, Helen, Mom, Dad, Rima, Amanda, Robyn, John, Zach, Jack, Dave, Luke, Lillian, Lucy, Cameron, Ben, and many many more. And YOU if you are reading this!

- much love, Liam <3

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released July 1, 2020

Music and lyrics by Liam Fagan
All instruments performed, recorded, and produced by Liam Fagan

Cover photo by Adeline Galich
Album art by Grace Fagan

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